I'm really very sorry and ashamed to do to this, but I'm really stuck.
Here is the GoFundMe, explaining things.
If you prefer, here is my Paypal.
Also, I love you.
- Elli
I'm really very sorry and ashamed to do to this, but I'm really stuck.
Here is the GoFundMe, explaining things.
If you prefer, here is my Paypal.
Also, I love you.
- Elli
If you wanna hear me blabbing about whatever and drawring, go here.... https://www.twitch.tv/ellipsis_goblins
Hey, did you know that I'm drawing live on twitch? Cause I often am. I might be live right now! Come say hi... Click here for Twitchy goodness!
Danielle and I have been together for 20 amazing years, but we've come to realise that both of us have changed so much, that we can no longer give each what we need.
So after a lot of tears and long discussions, we decided a few months back, that we should end our relationship. We both love each other very much and we want the best for each other. There is no drama, no anger, no fighting, and there will be no court battles. As we work to carefully untangle our lives, we want to make sure that we both have what we need to be happy on our different paths.
Although this is scary and heartbreaking, we're both in relationships with other people and we're both doing very well emotionally. Both of us are going to be okay. We're looking toward the future with hope and excitement.
If you'd like to follow Danielle on Twitter, her account is https://twitter.com/HyperHalfling
Mine is https://twitter.com/EllipsisGoblins
- Elli
So this past weekend, I was lucky enough to be an artist guest of honour at SpoCon. This was my first public appearance since starting my transition and I was honestly terrified. Here I was, barely able to walk into a supermarket and I was about to speak at panels and have a big spotlight shined on me.
Once I got to the convention, my fear and anxiety immediately began to melt away. I was welcomed and respected in ways beyond what I deserved. Every single person at that convention treated me exactly like I'd hoped. Every. Single. Person. Everyone was comfortable around me and didn't make a big deal about my gender. Not once, was I dead named or misgendered. No one stared, no one snickered and no one made any rude comments.
During the weekend, I found myself actually forgetting that I was trans, for hours at a time. Up until now, it was always the loudest thing on my mind when I was in public. Normally, if I was in a group or crowd, I'd immediately be sizing up people's reactions. Trying to figure out if I was making anyone uncomfortable by being transgender and fearing ridicule. But this past weekend, for the first time, I stopped doing that. I just enjoyed being social and experiencing the convention.
At this tender stage of my transition, this weekend could have been devastating. I went out there emotionally exposed and any one of those people had the power to crush me with a few choice words. But they also had the ability to help me grow into myself and that's exactly what they did. This weekend was more important to me than most people realised and it couldn't have gone better. I now feel like it's okay to be comfortable with myself, even though I have a long way to go.
So if you ever want to go to a small but super fun convention, filled with warm, wonderful people, I highly recommend SpoCon.
Thank you, everyone who was there!
I've tweeted about this but I know not all of my readers use Twitter, so I figured that I should post this here as well. I'm transgender. This is going to be very strange or uncomfortable to some of you and I totally understand and respect that.
My breakdown in 2014 was the result of me trying everything I could to ignore this side of me and just live with the dysphoria. Or at least find other ways of coping that didn't involve me acknowledging this aspect of myself. I've been to two gender specialists and I've been on hormone replacement therapy for a little over 2.5 months now. Things are going really well and even though I'm still at the beginning of my transition, I'm super happy about the results already.
I'm amazed at the way my depression and self hatred have just melted away. I feel confident, energetic, social and creative. I know that transitioning is going to bring me through new difficulties and present new problems, but I feel like whatever comes at me, can't be as bad as wasting away like I was before admitting this to myself and to those people in my life.
My pronouns are she/her and I'm in the process of changing my name to "Ellipsis Hana Stephens" (Ell or Elli for short). If you're communicating with me and you misgender me or use my old name, don't even worry about it. This is an adjustment for everyone, so I promise that I won't be offended or annoyed (unless you're doing it on purpose).
I know this is going to cost me some readers, but this is something I just have to do.
Transgender crisis lines and support
My Twitter (Goblins news and random ramblings)
My Other Twitter (Trans related musings and experiences)
Thank you so much!
- Ell